3 years ago while in a chat room I met a guy. He was wonderful. Both him and I have a 5 year age difference, but that never became an issue. We immediately became best friends. I told him everything and in return he did the same. I loved the advice he gave me and I cherished every word of wisdom he gave to me as well. He was my mentor. Though I did not see him much we always spoke on the phone. In fact, during the 3 years of our friendship I only saw him 4 times.
I became attached to R&B music because of him, saw life in a different light, thought of love in a different way. I always kept him near my heart. He was just special. There was no way to describe my feelings for him, I just always thought he was an amazing friend.
I never thought of our friendship becoming anything more, although at times I did want him to be my boyfriend. I thought he would be the perfect boyfriend, husband, father, everything. He was just amazing. But I never said anything. I was afraid it would change our friendship, which I loved dearly.
Though we spoke every day for 2 years, he did find another girlfriend and stopped speaking to me as he used to. I wasn’t offended, but it did hurt to lose him. Then for many months we completely lost touch. He never called and we never saw each other. It hurt. I always wanted to talk to him and tell him about my life and tell him all my stories. But we lost touch. Then the day before going away on a trip to Columbia we spoke briefly. When I returned I called and found that his number had changed.
One day in October as I was on AOL I received an instant message from a familiar screen name, but could not recall who the screen name belonged to. The guy said he knew me and tried to describe some things he remembered about me. After a while I decided to give him my number because it became very confusing. And when he called it was him!!! I was so excited.
I had missed him so much. He apologized for not remembering much, and explained that a lot had happened in the past few months which had changed him. Unfortunately his previous girlfriend who he was madly in love with had passed away of an asthma attack while spending time with him. When he told me this my heart broke. I knew he was in pain,
which hurt me most. I always wanted to lift his spirits. At this point I had already read The Secret and seen the DVD. I applied everything in the book to my life. I always tried to be positive and I always hoped that my positive thoughts would bring his spirits up.
I began to finally see him more often, spending more time with him. Taking walks in Central Park, going to Barnes and Nobles, hanging out at Starbucks. It was all a lot of fun. I began to gather stronger emotions for him. He was so amazing.
I wanted to tell him how I felt but I was still very afraid. I wanted to tell him how much I cared about him and liked him. But oddly the word ‘like’ was always a hard word for me to say to him, and still to this day I wonder if it was because I always ‘loved’ him… never ‘liked’ him.
I finally did tell him, and we became boyfriend and girlfriend. I was so excited!! He was everything I ever wanted in a boyfriend. Our relationship is so amazing. I love everything about it.
